Sheeshhh... how COULD I forget?

Well, thanx to TFL, I've remembered.  I've been trying to thin out my fanlistings, with little, or no luck.  I've posted and reposted in the TFL Forum, with little response.  Now I've discovered TFL's LJ group.  Tah-dah... another reason to remain loyal to my journal...

*giggle*

So, *crosses fingers*  I hope that some of these listings will be found by lovers.  I would really hate to close them.  Wanna peek and see what's up for grabs?

I have to laugh at hubby.  Last night he was telling me about this "grand" affair that they'll be having at the local Grand Rapids zoo.  "... bands from all over!  All kinds of old bands, too.  Like, Inks..."

"Inks?"  I asked him, all puzzled.

Then it hit me... he's talking about INXS!  lol.  Poor hubby... such a damn country boy.  He does his very best to keep up on what I like.

Anyway, I have no idea what the hell he's talking about.  I've checked their gigography, and I see nothing for anything near Grand Rapids, MI.  I've also checked the zoo... they do have a fund raiser coming up, hosted by a local radio station... but I don't see any details about the bands that will be playing...???

Just a tidbit....

So… here I sit. Summer.

And… I’ve quit my night shift job, for a less paying day time job. Hm. I start in two weeks. However, I’ve worked this out in my little bitty mind. You see… I may be making a dollar less an hour at the new job, BUT, the new job is 19 miles closer to home. Need I point out the obvious? *giggle* I’ll be saving what I’ve lost hourly in gas alone. Not to mention… my sanity, and that of my family. I’ll be home at night… and working during the day. That’s normal. Right? I don’t really care about normal, however, my brats do. They are much happier when life at home is “normal”.

Also, my experience in working days… I’m not so damn tired. And I get more done around the house. Kewl… ?

Anyway, I’ve got updated pics on the kittens! They’re playing more and more. I’ve even spotted them running ( or trying to ) a couple of times in the past couple of days. Momma is getting more and more picky about when they nurse. *sigh* ‘Tis almost time. I’m feeling the beginnings of “empty nest” syndrome. *pouts*

Double trouble… IT and Carrie.

Hind side of Christine. She wasn’t willing to let me get a good shot.

Cujo and IT… Cujo luvs using their litter to play in…

*giggle*

Sooo... the very last time I posted in LJ, it was blizzardy!  And now... well... at 9:07am, it's 85 degrees out... o so hot.  Sheeshhhhh... hello again, LJ!

As far as things go, not much has changed.  'Cept, I now live in a different house, and a different city.  Punkey's father is still a jack ass... and that family of his still razzes her. Ugh.  There's no end for the dear child... none.

Also... I have a secret to confess... and I've decided that I will be doing so here.  But not now...

We've been HIT with snow and blizzards!  Amazing!  In fact, I didn't go into work last night, due to the weather.  (  Great excuse, right? lol )  It's been BAD.  I don't think I've seen Michigan have weather so consistantly since I was a kid. 

I will have to conquer the roads to get to work tonight.  They don't offer any off time for weather.  Gods... there were factories and business posting closings all over our region last night, but not my work!  That's just the way of it, I suppose.

Anyway, Punkey will be going to school in my district now, so there will be no more issues involving transportation, or Ms. Proposition.  Relief.  She's switched at semester, which is easier for her, and she will be away from "those" ex-in laws of mine.  Truly, those people are terrible.  They are hounding Punkey about everything... including her opinion on her Uncle Dan's child molestation charges.  Gods!  Lay the fuck off of her, people!  And if they're not on her about that, they're all over her about MY life... making her feel bad 'cuz I bought her a new cell phone, and not her brother.... blah, blah, blah.  If my oldest son wants to reside with his father, then his father can supply the goodies.  I will not leave a cell phone out there, near my ex-husbands reach, that I pay for.  Today alone, I've gotten two calls for him, with a restricted number.  On MY cell phone alone... and Punkey gets them regularly.  Rediculous.  The man is a total loser, and a user. 

This is just babble.  I have nothing useful to share.  I'm tired... and need to make dinner.  Chili time....

O... and today is my disgruntled mother's birthday.  Happy Birthday, Mother.

*sigh*

In bloggie... *sniffs* ( poor lost bloggie )  I've mentioned a friend of mine, that I call "Honey".  Well... this friend has truly been a friend to me...like none I've ever had before.  ( That's for sure! )  She's always been there to help in anyway possible.  And willingly, too.  She would buy breakfast for us, and rent movies, and though I would protest, feeling so pathetic her buying for me, she insisted.  She always would say, "When somebody wants to do something nice for somebody... you should let them do it.  It would hurt their feelings more to turn away their gesture of kindness due to self-pride."  *sigh*  She's the type of person that loves to do things for other people, and buys little presents, for any random reason.  She's completely self-less... always creative in her ways of making others feel so special.  For real.

However... ( and this quite honestly makes me sick... I've NEVER had these emotions before )  This past Friday... she "propositioned" my husband.  *chilled*  Yes... she "offered" herself to him... sexually.  I only found out 'cuz hubby decided that I should know.  Hm.  How effing kind of him, huh?  *shakes head*  I'm in complete shock... and have been thinking of this non-stop since he told me about it Friday night.  I'm stunned. 

As of right now... my hands are tied.  My youngest son goes to her house every morning, and she gets him off to school for me.  I work until 8AM, so I'm not able to do it myself... Boo's father also works 3rd shift... as does his current "girl-friend".  I'm racking my brain about who can take care of Boo for me in the mornings!  Bubba and Punkey go to a different school... otherwise this wouldn't be an issue.  Hubby has to bring those two to school every morning...  I'm going to check with Boo's school, and see how early their before and after school programs open.  That's my only hope.  I have to get Boo out of there... mainly so I can confront her.  I mean... WTF???  What the fuck is wrong with people???

And hubby's role in this?  Sheesshhh... I have to trust him, of course, but do I to the very core of me?  Hell no.  Sorry if this offends some, but he's no more than a man... and any man knowing that there's a woman out there... ready for him whenever the urge should take over... is only trouble.  No matter how much he swears that nothing would ever happen... Whatever.  I wasn't born yesterday.  Especially... putting hubby's past into consideration.  He's really not much more than a dog...   A good dog, but still a dog, none the less.

I'm sickened by all of this... and I'm now beginning to wonder why he DID tell me... And if all happened as he said it did, what has he done to give her the idea that it would be safe to offer herself to him?  Gods... this is so typical. 

So... "Honey" wasn't the friend I thought she was.  However... though I was wrong about her being completely self-less, I was dead on about her desire and willingness to "help", and make people feel "special".  I was so stupid!

I'm afraid this whole scenario is well on it's way to being just another god-damn soap opra statistic...

I've done it... I've made the switch.  I've left my old host, and gotten new.  I've also purchased new domains... and I'm working on redirecting darkepurple.us. 

What a royal pain!  I don't want to have to do this EVER again... However... I have to say, I'm glad that I'm away from the old host... I had to move servers TWICE, just being with them.  And then... they went from cpanel to plesk... back to cpanel.  It's been a mess... and I'm royally tired of databases and root urls. 

Anyway... I will have bloggie back up soon.  She will have her own home, located at http://malvagita-viola.com.  ( It means wicked purple )  *sigh*  However... like a dumb butt... I forgot to export a current database... sheeshhh... so... the new journal will be a bit out dated.  Ugh! 

My fanlisting collective is now located at http://inkognita.org

I'm excited about this... though I luved darkepurple.us... it had grown stagnent to me... and inkognita has inspired some fresh ideas for design.  *giggle*  I just luv an excuse to make a new layout... ;)

O well... it's done... now just to tie up loose ends!

*hugs*

So be it… here I sit early on the morning of xmas eve… at my puter. According to society, I’m probably a freak, however, I have no spirit for the season this year. In fact… I haven’t for the past SEVERAL years. This year I actually followed through with what I’d said in past years: I’m not going to celebrate. *sigh* The kids are all away, at their fathers’, and that’s good, the season is special to them, you know. PRESENTS!!!

I didn’t put up a tree this year, either. O… don’t get me wrong, I tried, hubby brought out the 6 ft fakey up out of that dungeon of a basement, and I attempted. However, once all set up, the “pre-lits” fizzled, and refused to work. The tree made it to the curb, for the garbage man. I guess it was just it’s time. I did put out our decor… honestly, for the kids. I even hung the xmas towel that my sister in law sent from Colorado, but that’s that. The only shopping I’ve done as of yet, is for hubby’s little grand-daughter, and that would be a little, pink, Princess blanket. It was there… on sale, so I had to snag it. I probably would have snagged it regardless of this season.

Gods… I guess I’m Scrooge, real and true this year. I will buy gifties for my kiddies, of course. Next weekend, when the kids are all back, we’ll have a few things for them, and possibly even a tree, if hubby can find one on sale. Can you believe this???

I guess my whole real reason for lack of seasonal interest is simple: Hubby has a huge family, and we have tons of friends, with absolutely not a dollar to spare. Granted, we could do what we’ve done in the past, and put tons of bills off for the sake of this season… but NO. That’s got to stop, for crying out loud! I’m tired of always playing catch-up, especially when we’ve begun to recover so nicely with me going back to work. There will be no spending of bill money on gifts this year. It seems almost tainted to do that, anyway, you know?

O *sigh* I’m not asking for sympathy, or begging for anybody to feel sorry… and I don’t mean to bring a single soul down, or condemn anybody who’s gotten into the season, regardless of finance, but something’s broke in me this year, and not just dollars. I want security in our family, and realness. And a loving time of year shouldn’t be filled with guilt and fear. I suppose this year we find out who our real friends are, huh?

But… *giggle* Hubby and I will be leaving soon, to do a BIT of shopping. Firstly, we need groceries, of which is always the case, and secondly, we will be going to sweet Honey’s home tomorrow for a season feast. And she has gifts for us. *sigh* I’ve begged and begged her to please not to, ‘cuz we can’t… but of no good. She’s one of the most giving people I know. She luvs to give to others… it makes her so happy. Anyway… the silly woman needs a new bill-fold. She currently is holding her old one shut with a hair tie, and I’ve been vowing since this past summer to buy her a new one. I’m not sure what to do for her man and her kids… I will have to come up with something clever… that’s inexpensive, too.

And with every season that passes me by, I hope for better ones. I do hope that next near will bring a fuller bank account… and I CAN buy those little tidbits of neet-o’s that I see and JUST KNOW it’d be PERFECT for so and so… Like Honey, I too like to give… but only when I can. Am I selfish?

Ok... so totally "duh to me".  I completely forgot that I could post in my LJ.  Ugh!  ;)

My host has changed servers... again... and AGAIN, I've run into MAJOR problems with all of my databases.  *sigh*  I'm waiting for their help, however... And hopefully it will come soon enough, 'cuz tfl.org is getting pretty antsy about all of my script errors at with my fanlistings.  Let's keep our fingers crossed, huh?

Also... bloggie is down... I am working on that as I type.  I've let jasmine-rose.com go, and bloggie, once installed, and hopefully database cooperates, will now be located at http://darkepurple.us/journal/.

Later with more...

*hugs* ( Liza... I think you're pretty much the only one who reads this journal... lol )

*giggle*

Dreams are simply crazy... I mean, totally crazy if a someone like me is making love with a someone like Gene Simmons.  *rolls eyes*  Silly dream, and my oldest son was in it, too, and Gene even promised to buy him a new couch (couch!!) to make him feel better about the affair his mother was having with a rock star. 

Sheeshhh... I need to re-install my dream journal again.  My dreams are becoming vivid once again.  I think it may have something to do with me going back to work.  It's almost like a part of myself is awaking again.  Gods... who would have thought that going back to work full time would be an "awakening" experience???

*hugs*